Everything is great; but….

So where do I begin when I haven't written a blog post in about 6 months? It's nearly midnight on a Thursday night I am home from work but just can't settle; I feel all bubbley. Maybe some updates are over due: - I finished college - I am on some meds that atchually work …

Is it relapsing?

I was doing so well, and my brain was improving. As my PTSD has got better though everything else seem to get worst, I a struggling to socialise even with the people I live with. But I am not acting on anything, no self-harm even; if I have had to lock anything dangerous in my …

My testimony isn’t a 12A

I was chatting after at a pray meeting on Monday to my old children’s worker, we were catching up what we were up to etc. We were talking about what we were doing at our respective churches and I mentioned doing the youth worker. Any way the conversation continued and I made a joke about …

Dear Church; here’s how you can help me

I have grown up in my church and love my church family to bits; they’re one of the most important parts of my life and I wouldn’t be the person I am without them. My mental health has been an ongoing issue for quite a while now and many people in my church have been …

Where does God fit in?

Trigger Warning Self-Harm and Suicide A few weeks back I was discussing with a friend the progress I had made within my mental health.  My friend is a total atheist but we have always had mutual respect for each other’s beliefs and very open conversations about it. I started talking about how praying when I …

My 2016

2016 has been one of the impactful years of my life to date. But on reflection the silver linings of the storms are what will truly impact my 2017. This year I have lost friendships that were truly good, and lost parts of me that were truly bad. I have walked away from my childhood …

Can I Be Just A Little Ethical?

So it’s 11 o’clock at night and I am winding down for the night, I go back to work after two weeks of annual leave tomorrow. I have done a face mask (cruelty free), lip scrub (lush, vegan),whipped my hair back and decided to make a hot chocolate. It’s not my usual brand and when …

Suicide Awareness: My Little Bit

Well this seems a weird topic for someone who hasn’t written a blog post in over a year. And there are many reasons why. One I have been making more YouTube videos and spent more time and focusing on that. Two I started a new job. Three my mental health and negative experiences which have …

Giving 110% Effort On Everything But Living

It's three in the morning again, just like who this blog started, I have just sat up and seen my reflection in a mirror, it seem so strange to me to have brown hair again; despite it being my natural colour and having it for nearly two weeks now, it had been nearly two years …

My Blood Doesn’t Work Properly

That sound a little extreme but here’s how it works; I have Pernicious Anemia which basically means my immune system attacks to enzymes which turn the vitamin B12 I have digested in to protein for my blood. Or at least that’s how I understand it. So to help with that I have injection of B12 …